97% of the time after any kind of project, event, performance, or anything involving planning and execution, especially if dealing with the church, I walk away and have this kind of conversation in my head:
“That was pretty good. ____ was done well.
______ wasnt done all that well.
______ wasnt what we had thought it may turn out like.
______ is how we could have done much, much better.
Years ago, I thought this was a bad trait. I had misunderstood it as being “impossible to please”, pessimistic, over-critical. But over time, I have seen that it is merely my desire to create or belong to something that is as incredible as it is in my thoughts of what it could be. Sometimes, this gap is HUGE. Sometimes, it is small. But the gap still gnaws at me most of the time. I’ve been on a journey to keep this healthy though - a “healthy” dissatisfaction. Ira Glass, host of the radio show “This American Life” paints this beautifully in this vid clip on storytelling and gave me a much better way to explain this...to myself, and to others. Enjoy.
A 10-gallon hat tip to Chad Brooks, one of my blogging senseis (that looks strange plural), for the video link and the convo that followed in our meeting later that day.
From Wilmore, with Love.